Kind of hate myself sometimes. I don’t like myself as it is, I don’t need you reinforcing that idea in my mind. It just makes me feel really shit about myself, like I’m not good enough for you. I do try sometimes you know. I just don’t have the will power. I know I need to get some. 1 week. Improve in 1 week. That’s a start, right? Take solace in the little victories. That’ll be the way to do it.
Now I just need a little victory.